I have written for 240 days now. In hindsight, I think I could have taken the weekends off instead of writing everyday. But I’ve always been indisciplined like that. Or disciplined, I’m not so sure. Indisciplined because I never have a balance in my life. And too disciplined to always focus on a singular goal.
I remember when I worked full-time, I couldn’t have gone through a single day without achieving something. Almost addicted to progress like a substance user. Over time, I thought I stopped doing that. I thought I stopped running after singular goals and giving everything to them. But I was wrong.
I started to write for therapeutic reasons. But by setting a streak, I fell into my old habits before I even began. I was still serving my old self that couldn’t have gone through a single day without progress. I was still doing it to feed my ego. Sure, I wanted to prove by example how progress is made. I felt that It’s great to help others and lead by example. But when you satisfy your ego along the way, you’ve already lost the plot. I honestly can’t say that along the way, I didn’t hope for readership, distribution and appreciation.
I read this wonderful piece on New York times. I read it again and again and many times over to fully absorb it. Despite being a small article, I found it be way more enlightening than many books I had read.
It’s about the two mountains some people climb. And what these mountains represent. The valley in between. And what the valley can do to you, or what you should do while in the valley.
I encourage you to read the original piece. Although every sentence resonated with me, here are some of my favorite excerpts.
The first mountain is about acquisition, the second mountain is about contribution. The first mountain is about building up the ego and defining the self, the second is about shedding the ego
And the following just hit me like nothing has hit me in a really long time.
Freedom is not an ocean you want to swim in; it is a river you want to cross so that you can plant yourself on the other side.
I know that I’m in the valley right now. In between the mountains. Or the ocean that I’ve been swimming in for a long while.
Life could only be meaningful with a second mountain. Or by crossing the river and being on the other side.
On the first mountain we shoot for happiness, but on the second mountain we are rewarded with joy. What’s the difference? Happiness involves a victory for the self.
Thank you for reading. I will be writing again, but not on a regular basis.
Take Care of yourself! Though I will miss my daily reads. It was like I was reading a novel everyday. Good Luck and keep writing.
Perhaps, this was the most meaningful & fruitful piece here. Read the NY Times article and it definitely left its impact on me. Take your time before you get back!
Best,
Usama.